second choice

I've realised a lot of things are changing. my best friend have had somebody she likes for a very long time. well..we have 2 cliques. one with just us girls(MNET), and another, with our 2 seniors(MGDT). sometimes, i feel so left out. i thought i wasn't lonely, but the truth is, i am not as important to my best friend as i thought i was. i live far away from the rest of my friends, and when MGDT decides to meet, most of the time, they don't invite me. like, when they have breakfast really early in the morning. they don't even ask. hah. it's like, nobody cares about how i feel. even if i couldn't, they should've asked me. just let me know, that i'm wanted. not keep me in the dark! i hate it. i really hate it..nobody would ever understand. occasionally, i feel like..transferring to another school, or even study aboard(which is impossible). but, the fact that i'll be going to somewhere unfamiliar scares me.

just..nobody understands.