6.38pm

the person i've been crushing on for 2 years talked to me. well...i was awkward and..it ended with me saying goodbye haha /: . i feel really bad though. i shouldn't have done that. but..what's done is done. i'm alone again. he likes someone else, but why does he have to talk to me at a time like this? when i'm lonely and helpless, he always start conversations. i don't want to fall in love with him again. never again, please, i hope i can contain these feelings. i think it's better to be alone, but..i don't want to  be alone, i want to talk to him. but i'm awkward and i don't know what to say. i guess i should just.. shut out the world and be alone. once and for all. i really do hope i don't fall in love again, because it'll only hurt me. he has someone he likes. ugh, i'm so stupid.