lonely

why do i feel so lonely when i have so many nice people around me? why do i feel sad whenever i am alone? i think the truth is, i hate being alone, anti-social, awkward and liked by none. everybody should have somebody to be there for them. a friend, a lover or just somebody out there, willing to listen to them chatter non-stop. for me, i have nobody. nobody who would actually talk to me and understand me. i guess i have to open up to people, but i just can't do that. sometimes, i'm just afraid of being alone. not physically alone, but..mentally. the thought of knowing someone is there for you, just eases your soul. 

due to this depressing and uncomfortable feeling i'm encountering now, i decided to write something like a poem. to de-stress, let go, and just write about my feelings