company

I've just watched running man(ep181), and Lee Jong Suk and Song Ji Hyo are so sweet together. Maybe holding hands, linking arms and doing that "forehead kiss" in secret is really thrilling. Although it wasn't based on love, somehow, it felt like there was only two of them in the world, like they could do anything together. I truly loved the forehead kiss because sjh and ljs are the perfect match based on height.

Sometimes when I see those skinship that couples do (not sucking face, but the kind of sweet & gentle one, yknow?), I feel really envious. Like, I want a boyfriend, but at the same time, no. Actually, I want a long term boyfriend. Someone who will be there for me no matter what. Although this is really cliché, I want a boyfriend who is like a bestfriend, kind of like in between lovers and friends. Not quite friends, but lovers who can talk about all sort of things together.

So.. I've been talking to this guy called Marcus for awhile. He's a classmate! P.S. I don't have a crush on him. But, it's like.. I hate it when he just doesn't reply me. Like, the last message I sent him was to talk later because he was gaming, but he didn't reply! Even an OK would work, you know? Just to acknowledge and let me know you saw the message, and agree to talk to me later. But, still, people weren't made to live up to our expectations.

Update on school: 

School's fine. I've been coping with work and stuff. Actually, I'm proud to say that this year, I'm more organised and more productive. I keep my notes for various subjects seperated into different files (except for Chinese and some English because I'm too lazy haha) and I am doing my homework really quickly. Although some lessons, I couldn't understand properly, overall, I'm doing good. I still remember during SS period, Mr Samy kind of scolded me because I was not being attentive, so totally unlike me, but his lessons were too boring, like I could sleep and never wake up. Worst part is, my classmate told him that I would be heart broken and cry (seriously..) and he ended up apologizing? If he wants to scold me, just do it. Apology not accepted, think before you speak, sir..is what I wanted to say, but I didn't want to get into trouble. Trouble is really troublesome haha, really though, I'm too lazy to listen to all those crap teachers and the school put us through. Detention? Really? Outside the office? How creative.

Update on life:

Doing quite ok. 

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Because I think my lips look pretty here.

Gosh, I'm seriously too self-centered ._.