Take for example, my "ex"-bestfriend. One day, we were talking in our usual clique(4LC), and the next day, she was never to be seen in school again. And it turned out to be due to a huge misunderstanding. I don't mean to hate, but can't some girls be a little less dramatic? Anyway, she transferred. But, it's okay now, we're still friends, but..yknow, we can't instantly click like we used to. The sudden dissapearance shit ain't going to disappear from our memories. We can't pretend it didn't happen.
Yeah, moving on from that negative topic..to another negative one(haha), I now have a new clique, but with the same people+ another girl(MNET). So, there's this thing going on. My bestest of the best friend(T) suspects that E is indirecting us on twitter, but I strongly believe that she isn't. But a part of me think that she doesn't really like us. That's E, and now, T. I love T. I mean, she's the bestest best friend I could ever ask for. But sometimes, she copies what I say, what I do, like, bitch please, have some originality (says the girl who used "bitch please"). Sometimes I get jealous, like she gets attention because of something she copied from me. E.g., my catch-phrases and my actions. Some junior said she had originality, but tbh, some of her tweets were definitely copied from me. Take for example, I said people who says society is fat and too high-maintainence, shit, all them people are society itself. She agrees, and the next thing I know, she's saying the exact same thing to someone else. Like seriously? It's not that I'm "selfish" or anything, but I was the one who thought of it, and you're there, getting all the attention. And there was this other time, T came to school with side bangs, and a few weeks later, some random dude came up to us and asked if I copied her because I also had side bangs, but seriously? I had it since I was 13. The first day in high school(SS), I came with side bangs and she came with her a little pass shoulder length hair. She didn't even have a fringe! But I hate it when people think that way. What do they know. Ok, I promise this is the last point, there's still a long list, but this blogpost would go on and on. Anyway, there was once, I wore a black skater skirt, a tank top and a cardigan. And weeks or 2-3 months later, she wore something similar. A black skater skirt, our grey fitted top and a cardigan. Like wtf, does SHE have to copy what I wear too? That's not all. I wore jeans and shirt the other day and I took a picture of it, sent it to the group and talked. The next day, T was wearing jeans and a shirt. T wasn't someone who wore jeans. She was always someone who wore shorts and skirts. But why did she wore her jeans the day after I sent the picture? Obviously because she thought I looked normal in it and she wanted to compare us maybe? Idk but people are screwed up, especially me.
But sometimes..whenever I think that way, I feel really bad. I want to STOP thinking this way, let her copy whatever she wants, she's my bestfriend, what can I do about it? But on the other hand, I hate how she's always stealing my ideas. I'm always the one sad and alone, while she's more well-liked and stuff. I admit, I'm kind of jealous, but she doesn't have to say what I said to her right? I hate it. I think everyone hate it too, right? Well..maybe it's just me.
Anyway, it's not like I want to be famous or anything, but I wish for everything to be fair, I know "fair" isn't realistic, but I just want everyone to be equal. If not, please, anybody, please rescue me.
